Ever since Maia was born, I’ve been thinking about whether I could do it again. I have always wanted multiple children – at least two – but even though I had an uncomplicated labour it was a shock to me how bad the experience was and how much it hurt. And by all accounts I Read More
Category: Streams of thought
Mummy needs a break
Last week I hit a point where I felt like I’m pouring from an empty glass. Running on an empty tank. In hedge fund terminology, I’d been selling myself short without any idea of how to cover my positions. You get the picture – I really needed a break. So last weekend I got a Read More
Temporarily crippled by caring for baby
Despite my best efforts to look after myself so that I can look after my baby, I have to admit a failure. 😞 A few days ago, after ten days of poor sleeping in awkward positions with Maia in my bed most of the time, feeding on-the-go in non-ergonomic positions while travelling, and carrying around Read More
My first Mother’s Day
I woke up to my first Mother’s Day the same way I’ve been waking up every day for the last 14 weeks – my baby girl cooing in her Moses basket next to my bed, little legs kicking the air letting me know it was time to get up. It was 6am already, after all! Read More
Ultrasound scan of the empty womb
Last week I had an pelvic ultrasound scan. No, I’m not pregnant nor would I want to be at the moment. I had different reasons for this examination but nevertheless it felt strange to have a scan when there was no one there! Two years ago I went to see a gynaecologist because I was Read More
Is there space for daddy in the mummy & baby bubble?
The bond between a mum and her baby is something we hear about but can only really comprehend when experiencing it ourselves… I could have never imagined love so strong it’s almost a physical feeling! This bond is formed during pregnancy, beginning as the most wonderful secret and (literally) growing into something very precious which Read More
Separation
You tell yourself the baby is fine. She is at home, a short taxi ride away, with a close relative. You’ve expressed milk in case she gets hungry and left instructions to call you at any time in case she gets distressed. It’ll only be a few hours and you’ll be back. She will be Read More
The pregnant body and weight gain
Before falling pregnant I always wondered (and then dreamt) about how I would look like with a baby bump. Despite the inevitable weight gain, I honestly could not wait to have a bump to parade around! But how big would I get? Would my bump be high, low, spread over to the sides or point Read More
Ok I’m ready for you now baby – I think!
I am now 38-weeks and 5-days pregnant and getting every symptom listed under early (latent) labour. And have been, for a week already… It’s be fair to say I’m getting a bit impatient and anxious now, although we might well have a few more weeks to go. I know that in any case, it won’t Read More
10 000+ blog views – thank you!
It’s been about five months since I clicked “launch” on what had primarily been my personal diary, a channel to articulate and analyse my thoughts and feelings about wanting to become a mum. I started writing this blog soon after we decided to start trying for a baby, in November 2016. Considering the ups and Read More